Wealth

I am absolutely exhausted and wrung out. Since Graham's arrival, I haven't done a single thing that helps the ol' balance of mental health, like sleep at regular hours, and write in my journal every morning. For a few days there I was thinking that I could live on love, and you know, I could. But it all starts creeping up on you. Today I had an absolute whine fest to my friend Jen about my bare bone necessities only finances and my yearning. This is what she wrote:

i know it sucks not to have money... - i've been there - but i think it's important also to recognize (and i'm sure you do, by the way - this is more me just expressing my artist-envy) ...to recognize the RICHNESS and value of your other life. the life that doesn't have anything to do with just-getting-by and trying-to-make-things-work -- the life whose structure was fabricated by a government and civilization that wants more, more, more. you have riches that endure - sounds cheesy when i say it this way, but honestly - i've said it before: making money in cubeworld is such an easy way out. and you are steadily progressing toward a life in which you are going to make money - have plenty - doing what you love to do, expressing whats in your heart. that is gold, my friend. and the work you're doing now & have been doing all your life -- all the painting, writing, reading, songwriting,e tc. -- is bringing you exactly where you need to be to live the life you've imagined and that I DREAM OF. you are so rich. i just want you to know that.

It almost made me cry. I'm so dang rich in friends too. I know that's the most friggn' cheesy thing I can say here, but give me a break--I exhausted, and besides, it was so beautiful and surprising to get a message like that. We need these believing mirrors, folks. If Jen had a wb site (hint, hint Jenny Sue!), you would know that she makes beautiful bags and occasionally paints, and has a mouth watering sense of style.

I'm lucky because two of my favorite painters are also two fo my friends:

My beautiful friend Kai, posted an entry today about making dolls that drove me crazy with desire!

Above is one of my favorite paintings by my dear friend Alida. I like it because it's called 'Sugar Addict.' I like it because it is a self-portrait. I like it because there are not enough paintings of Hostess Chocolate cupcakes.