The perpetual first date
Just a quickie today because I'm at Kinko's and I'm off for an appointment at the temp agency--oh PLEASE send me someplace nice!
Look, not to be a downer to you all, but there's something I really need to admit. I am really homesick today. When I say "homesick" I don't mean a little mopey, I mean I sat crying today over the missed message from my dad that I found this morning. Look, don't get me wrong, New York is NEW YORK (in all caps)! New York is EXCITING! New York is NEW! New York is the EAST VILLAGE! New York is SOHO! It's just that right now I'd give almost anything to go to my dad's house and wrestle with my little brother and hold my little sister after she's taken a nap. I'd give almost anything to hug my dad hello. I'd give almost anything to sit with my best friend Jenny Sue and crack up and not have to WORK to connect or to get someplace. Somedays I feel like I'm on a perpetual first date--or worse, a perpetual job interview. Thoughts like, how do I look? Will she like me? Am I too old to be taken seriously? Where the heck IS this place? come over me.
I want familiarity. I want ease. Goodness me, do I want some place where I walk in and people are happy to see me.
This is, of course, to be expected. As Jen might say, "It's so natural, but this is going to be SO GOOD for you." Yadayada yada.
Sometimes people, you wake up excited, full of curiosity and somedays you want more than a phone call that says, "Hope you're doing well." Today is just one of those days.
Look, not to be a downer to you all, but there's something I really need to admit. I am really homesick today. When I say "homesick" I don't mean a little mopey, I mean I sat crying today over the missed message from my dad that I found this morning. Look, don't get me wrong, New York is NEW YORK (in all caps)! New York is EXCITING! New York is NEW! New York is the EAST VILLAGE! New York is SOHO! It's just that right now I'd give almost anything to go to my dad's house and wrestle with my little brother and hold my little sister after she's taken a nap. I'd give almost anything to hug my dad hello. I'd give almost anything to sit with my best friend Jenny Sue and crack up and not have to WORK to connect or to get someplace. Somedays I feel like I'm on a perpetual first date--or worse, a perpetual job interview. Thoughts like, how do I look? Will she like me? Am I too old to be taken seriously? Where the heck IS this place? come over me.
I want familiarity. I want ease. Goodness me, do I want some place where I walk in and people are happy to see me.
This is, of course, to be expected. As Jen might say, "It's so natural, but this is going to be SO GOOD for you." Yadayada yada.
Sometimes people, you wake up excited, full of curiosity and somedays you want more than a phone call that says, "Hope you're doing well." Today is just one of those days.
posted by Summer Pierre at
4:58 PM
1 Comments:
I've lived in NYC 5 of the past 8 years, and the past 3 in a row....i still have various days (especially in the middle of July and AUgust) that laying on the beach at Lake Huron seems the most perfect thing in the world. Or jsut playing catch with my parents dog in the backyard...
totally natural - hope the temp leads went well... :)
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