Happy to Have You Back Anytime

Happy 6 Months to me moving to New York! WHAT A GREAT NIGHT!

Here's the reality of what happens before a show for me (especially if it's been awhile): I go to get ready and suddenly the hypochondria starts kicking in. Why do I feel weak? Am I coming down with something? My stomach feels funny. I fell on the subway steps rushing to catch a train a couple of days ago, and my injured leg starts hurting more. Then I go to the club and it's awkward and nobody introduces themselves, and no matter how much I know this dynamic, it always feels weird. I do a brief soundcheck, and then I sit and act busy for a half hour until people start to trickle in.

Even though I felt "off" last night, I got up and did my show, battling a sudden bout of ADD, and a Howard Cosel in my head reporting every move I made, like some Basketball game. I sang my 9 songs and I made people laugh and I had a good time doing it. I dedicated "High Hopes" to Huckleberry Pie, my friend Katherine's pooch who turned one last night. It was to a room of people I either knew or they knew somebody I knew. Graham pointed out that I didn't know any one of them before moving to New York. 11 people in 6 months? That's pretty darned good! And that doesn't count the people who were going to come, but either weren't able to, or just didn't show.

The response was fantastic and warm and a relief for us all. So many people admitted being nerovous. I like her--what if I don't like her music? I assured them I knew EXACTLY how that felt--having been to MANY shows from invitations of friends or friends of friends. It's potentially VERY AWKWARD, but sometimes you go and are so pleasantly surprised, you're relieved that you don't have to be polite.

The cherry on top was that CB's LOVED ME. You know you've done well when a staff person goes out of their way to not only make it a point to tell you that they liked the show, but they want a CD. Steve, the doorman, was VERY KIND and encouraging and then he told me that the booking woman wanted to book me again. I turned to her at the bar, and she gave me a very serious talking to. She wanted to stress to me, THAT I AM GOOD and that she is hoping that I GET DISCOVERED and best of all, she said, "We would be happy to have you back ANYTIME." This is a woman who hears and listens to I am sure 100's of artists and she wanted me to call her and KEEP calling her untils she responds. YIPPEEEE! It's been a long time since I've had such validation from an outside source. FANTASTIC!

Afterwards, a bunch of us piled out into the cold, and got food. This is my favorite moment to doing a show--the feast after the event. You get to talk and eat and the food never tastes as good as it does after you've played to a bunch of people for 45 minutes.

Today I am so tired--but a GOOD TIRED. I've done something that matters to me and I want to do it more and more and more. Off to set some goals and meet them!

PS Also, I forgot to mention that Steve saw that I did the illustrations on my CD and said I should also get my ART SHOWN THERE!! You take one step and the universe adds two...