Change

Change is afoot. I am DIZZY with it. It must be springtime, that season of change, when people either shack up or ship off or do a little of both. In the last week I have had news of 3 babies, two divorces, a marriage, a new romance, and three new moves (either in job or location or both). People have been sharing their life stories with me, I have felt a feeling of closeness, the air is warmer, and my work is flowing. What is next? I can only GUESS.

There something about all this that makes me REALLY EXCITED. I think life is fascinating. I love knowing about people's lives so much--the process of life is so beguiling and fascinating. YOU NEVER KNOW. I say that all the time, but it is SO TRUE. In my 20's, this is something I never could fathom. I had very distinct ideas about how life either went or didn't. I had a 50-50 chance of making it--whtever that "it" meant. No wonder I was so UNHAPPY. Then something explodes, or a flood takes all your belongings, and it is all such a wretched mess, and that's when you discover that OH MY GOODNESS, there is MORE LIFE to be had.

More and more I am inspired by people's stories of "failure" of "breaking up" or "cracking up." Most of the time these stories are the ones that break their worlds wide open. Their horizons are suddenly SO MUCH larger than they ever imagined. This is often after a great deal of pain, but in the end, it is so good. It is so good because we are always so much more than we think. We get an idea of ourselves, but ideas are made to be broken. They aren't promises, they aren't infinite. They are only moments. They are creatures who change on us when we aren't looking. My advice is to get an idea and SPEND IT for what its worth. I assure you that ideas have an expiration date. A lot of my trouble has been due to ideas about life and being confused when they weren't always true or steadfast.

All this news this week seems to me about ideas being spent, being built, being thrown out the window. I am sending you love, whoever you are, who is going through a period of change--either good or bad. You are not alone. The world turns, and you are in its current. I am excited for you, and celebrate all that is going, and all that is coming. Look out across the horizon, and feel the warm breeze that picks up your hair and sends it flying.