April-That-Feels-Like-March
Do you ever feel that you're all alone out there in the big world? The truth is, you are ON your own, which isn't the same thing. I think I confuse these all the time. I look at others and think they have it all together, or there's just more love alotted for their piece fo pie, and maybe I am just screwed after all, but then I learn that even the "haves" feel this. The difference is that they do their work, and while I am sitting here, I can be doing my work too.
I'm having the April-feels-like-March blahs. My apartment is still wrecked from its dismantaling for our house guests, and I'm still not 100% healthy (when does an infernal cold GO AWAY already), and I am in just one of those moods where I want EVERYTHING to change. I need new shoes. I need a haircut. I need some fresh vegetables. I need a new desk. I need a ROAD TRIP.
I have been dreaming like crazy lately and all the dreams seemed to be filled with the unfinished business of my life. The relationships I'm confused about. The wedding I am planning. I wake up feeling a little uneasy. Then I raise my head and see the laundry pile that needs tending to, and the light that comes in through the window is dull and gray.
I am so NOT living the dream today.
I was talking with my mother about the wedding the other night and told her I now had a working list and she interrupted me and said, "Oh no, not one of YOUR lists. You so LOVE to make lists." I laughed, because yes, I make LISTS. I am a visual person, and lists are a way to SHOW me where I need to go.
And what would be on my list this weekend? Look for the wonder and write it down. Create something, whether it's a pie or a picture. For God' sake, BUILD something and be the springtime that hasn't come yet, and help your little garden grow.
posted by Summer Pierre at
3:20 PM
4 Comments:
I stumbled across your blog and I spent well over 30 minutes reading and looking at your artwork. I really enjoyed it. I look forward to what you write/create in the future! Feel free to take a look at my blog if you wish. Cheers!
Joshua
http://www.joshuajab.blogspot.com
drinking wine helps.
just kidding.
no i'm not.
i'm about to scream with all this rain and slush.
ugh.
We had ONE DAY of sixty-ish weather and I wondered why my sense of optimism went through the roof and why I suddenly was in a REALLY GOOD MOOD. Then the two days of freezing rain came. I feel like a mushroom. Pass the wine.
I just learned of your blog from the grapevine and have spent the better part of this afternoon enjoying it. Very good stuff here and not surprising but still delightfully unexpected, if that makes sense. It has been horribly rainy and gloomy here in Portland and reading your posts was my cup of hot chocolate. The best part is that it was like finding a really awesome dress that you didn't know you had- in your own closet. Oh, wait- that sounds shallow. What I mean is that I have met you, and I know that we are going to be "family", but I haven't had the privilege of enjoying you- getting to know you- yet. So this is cool.
-Lisa Moore Parsons
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