Linus as a metaphor for blogging

This is sometimes my own mental experience with blogging.

I've been taking myself too seriously. I know, YOU ARE TOTALLY SHOCKED. It's true--EVEN ME (Thinx-2-much Pierre). There comes a time when the things you love to do become the have to dos, and that's when a subtle thing starts to transpire. You forget that it's fun. You forget what fun is, because when you are creating art or writing or music and it's all for SOMETHING and not for NOTHING it can get a little draggy. It becomes the ball and chain. This has been happening to me a lot lately and I have had that crappy gnawing feeling that something just doesn't FEEL right. Why am I not JOYFUL and LOSING TIME happily? Because after this picture or illustration, there is a short story to be written and submitted and after that there's another deadline for something else, oh and don't forget that you promised THIS to THAT person.

Yesterday I sat feeling a bit grim for no reason. I just didn't HAVE IT to give. So I decided to give up all my attempt at trying to make it all happen at once and I decided to LIGHTEN UP. The first order of business was to listen to Journey. Nothing says LIGHTEN UP like Journey's "Don't Stop Believing." I mean, let's face it, when that piano comes on, I dare ANYONE not to look over both shoulders to see if anyone is watching and then TURN IT UP. I also put away the super duper high arty literary book I am reading and got out a comic book I haven't read since I was a kid. Then, like usual when I give up the IDEA of something, cool coincidences started happening. Plans got happily canceled, therefor two of my deadlines also got pushed back; I discovered that Lynda Barry's book What It Is came out that very day. I ran and got it and ate it up with relish on the way home. And to top it all off, the actor Tony Roberts, who has been in all my favorite Woody Allen films, walked past me on 63rd Street. I took it as a good sign.

Man oh man, I think I'll start tomorrow with Boston's "More Than a Feeling." I think I need it.