Summertime and the Living is Uneasy

This is how the summer is for me every year and I always forget:

slow.

dulling.

aimless.

unsettling.

Driving this home a lot of things have not been "working" lately.

Almost every plan I've made with other people in the last 6 weeks has either been a) canceled b) rescheduled or c) screwed up.

The three major logistical things I am working with right now have all had hiccups and have either been delayed or just are not working at all. There seems to be at least a two week lag time in all cases.

We made plans to travel and they got canceled because our cats had a mysterious incident, which left them not speaking.

I've been trying to make plans for an upcoming trip, but nothing is being responded to or being actualized.

The mail has been erratic. Letters have gone missing. I've had two Fed Ex packages get missed at the door, due to our doorbell being broken and miscommunication. Yesterday, the same thing happened with a UPS package. Despite arrangements being made, our coffee was delivered to my old work address this week.

My hard drive is gone.

I recently took photos for a poster I was going to illustrate and they got lost too.

Even my sleep isn't working.

I am not making this up or exaggerating or even trying to complain. It's just what it is: a whirlpool of a universal COME BACK LATER. I keep trying to CAJOLE things into action, but it ends up stalling every time. This morning when I found out that yet ONE MORE THING wasn't "ready" I finally lifted my hands and said OKAY, I GET IT. Something large is shaping itself, I am just not to be involved right now. Whatever it is, I hope you get here soon. It's awfully hard to know how to proceed in a day. Or maybe that's the point. I won't proceed. I'll just keep going.